Yes, I admit it, I am scared about getting the covid shot. Ever since, the CDC first announced the development and distribution of the first series of Covid shots, I have been approaching this prospect with apprehension and anxiety. My fear of the Covid shot is probably equal to that of getting the Coronavirus itself. While it is true that I have preregistered to get the Coronavirus vaccination, fear surrounds me like a tightly wrapped bubble. I try to push the bubble away from me, but it bounces back, like that of an ever persistent fly. This fear still lingers and will continue to linger until I make a choice between what is hard and what is easy. To be or not to be? indeed.
Currently, getting the Covid shot is completely voluntary, at least in the United States. In this country as of this writing, about 35% of people (or 263 million people) are fully vaccinated against the Coronavirus [source]. Just seeing this number alone is reassuring. As further proof, I see family, friends, and neighbors who have gotten the Coronavirus vaccination with seemingly no adverse side effects. They are walking around outside, sometimes sans mask, but seemingly healthy and perhaps more confident. Seeing this does give me hope.
But then I read about how the Johnson & Johnson vaccine had to stop being administered due to a few cases of blood clotting issues. I saw this, and I felt ripples of fear within me. Suddenly, the Covid shot felt like an unknown entity, and despite its apparent good, who knows how it would react inside my body. What if I am part of the minority and the Covid shot does more bad than good?
Of course, the chances of that are relatively low. Many have gotten the Covid shot and are perfectly healthy. Many have gotten the shot with no long term side effects. But then there are the short term side effects, which also scare me. I have read that the short term side effects from the Covid shot are similar to that of the flu, with symptoms such as nausea, chills, fever, and muscle pain. Of course, these side effects don’t seem particularly terrible or life impacting, but they do cause even a small disturbance from daily life.
But besides the side effects, what is even worse is the shot itself. Anyone who knows me knows that I am terrified of getting a shot. I don’t even like to get my blood drawn unless absolutely necessary. And the Covid shot is stuck directly into a muscle in the arm. Have you ever had a shot in the muscle? It hurts a lot.
Of course, all of these fears and even complaints seem like minor inconveniences. When I do get the Covid shot, I will be fine and can look back at my fear with some humor. When I do get the Covid shot, I can walk down the aisle at the store and not consciously back away in order to maintain the required amount of distance. And when I do get the Covid shot, I can finally attempt a semblance of normality.
But first, I need to pluck up my courage. Perhaps with hope this fear will soon turn into a story of how I overcame yet another fear. Perhaps once I get the Covid shot, the Coronavirus will seem that much less threatening and fearful.